We got back home today and I personally feel 10 times more miserable than I felt this morning. When I told Richard how I felt this afternoon, he said we're not ready to get back to normal life. He is absolutely right. It just doesn't seem right (or fair) that things should just go back to 'normal', whatever that is,.. yet. I know I'm suck somewhere in the second stage of grieving, and I'm not sure how long thats going to last. I just know, that if I feel this crummy, I shudder thinking about what goes through Jill's head, every moment, of every day.

So many people came to the wake and funeral. A phenomenal number of people. Some none of us knew. So many people fed us over the last week.. amazing amounts of food, helped us with childcare so that those of us with children could attend all of the services and support Jill, donations to the memorial trust set up for Ethan and Olyvia... its just amazing. Perfect strangers. As Richard said, it just goes to show, that for the most part, people are just good.

I do have more to say, but right now I'm nursing a severe headache, trying to catch up on laundry, get dinner on the table, and try to get some sleep. There will be more said about this past week, and even more thoughts about Virg to come. But nothing I say here, could ever come close to describing what a wonderful human being he was.
It will probably be a few days before I come around to replying to comments and emails received while I was away. But please know,.. I, we, all of us, sincerely appreciate the thoughts and prayers... everything done and said for us, but mostly for Jill and her children.

Around a year ago on this day..

• Two things - 2007