I’m having a bad day
October 12th, 2006If your looking for fiber content, today isn't the day to visit.
I'm having another one of those "I loathe NY" days. Things are so radically different here than they are in Wisconsin.
I've spent the better part of the morning on the phone with our insurance company, who incidentally suck, fighting over two different claims. One they just won't pay for, and tell me, that although it was emergent care, its coded to fall under our deductible. Bleh, Excellus, YOU SUCK. And a prescription drug that they won't pay for until I can prove that I've taken two prior GENERIC, similar drugs that did not work. Can I just say FUCK YOU Excellus? Because of their denial, my doctor wants to prescribe another drug, which honestly has frightening side effects.
It seems so silly that arguments with Excellus BC/BS would send me off on this tangent, but dammit, we just didn't have to deal with as much shit, on.a.daily.basis in Wisconsin that we're forced to deal with here. And there is so much more under the surface that I'm just not going to blog about.
Let me just say, our family's quality of life, and general happiness has decreased by 75% since we moved here. I admit I suffered some pretty serious homesickness while in Madison, but even our kids, still talk about wanting to move back, and in general, are just not happy here. Its not a northeast thing.. its a New York thing.
Richard made a comment recently about missing Wisconsin, and I think I'm agreeing with him. Our choice to move to New York, was probably the worst decision we have ever made for our family.
To complicate this "mood", Richard's dad is now seriously ill, and Krissy's diagnosis has changed and become much more serious than any of us could have anticipated (a malignancy). Just when I ponder all of this and think I'm ok with the world, I start to think again.. and I'm not so OK anymore.
Pardon my temper tantrum.. I need some excedrin, valium, or a glass bottle of wine.
Around a year ago on this day..
- I could do this all night... - 2005
- An All Time Low - 2005
- What a Difference A Month Makes - 2005
- Rain Rain, Go Away - 2005
October 12th, 2006 at 2:04 pm
You know I simply have no words of comfort for you and I’m so sorry but I’m always here to read your vents if that’s any comfort at all.
October 12th, 2006 at 2:17 pm
Oh, Carla, I just want to cry for you. Whatever you do, don’t take the Excedrin, valium and wine all at once!
I could never in a zillion years live in New York. Not upstate or downstate. I will just never be in a New York frame of mind. I’ve always loved Boston, but it is horribly expensive. Whenever I travel to the Midwest, I’m reminded that we could live like freakin’ royalty out there compared to here. Then again, that part of the country has changed over the last 20 years and I don’t think it would ever feel like “home” again.
I’m sorry to hear about Krissy’s latest diagnosis. Argh. If there is anything I can do, please holler!
October 12th, 2006 at 4:52 pm
It wasn’t the worst mistake. You were there for a reason…who would have comforted your sister? Take care of your best friend’s son? Because you are there right now, you are able to do these things.
Also, if you hadn’t had moved you never would have truly been happy here because you would have always wondered “what if?”. Well, now you know, and it isn’t too late to change things. You waited a long time to move to NY, and it was some comfort knowing you were going to be there one day….you should just reverse it and make a plan to come back to Wisconsin.
Madison isn’t the same without you and Ricard’s dedication to community and political activism, knitting and barbecues.
October 12th, 2006 at 5:10 pm
((Hugs)) You’d need extra ones if you lived in Wisconsin today — dang! It’s COLD!! I actually see snowflakes drifting around outside.
I moved around a lot, by choice and otherwise. You have to try and make the best of it, wherever you are — and for however long you’re there. It doesn’t have to be forever, does it? I’m going to echo Laura a little and ask whether it’s time to start making a plan.
((More Hugs))
October 12th, 2006 at 9:10 pm
Hi Carla,
I am so sorry that things are going so nastily for you these days. I send you some good vibes from a “New Yorker” who loves ya! and from someone who has had some lousy days myself… not fun. I am very sorry to hear about Krissy’s diagnosis. Please hang in there. Have a couple glasses of wine, but not the whole bottle! I am thinking of you.
Nan
October 13th, 2006 at 8:50 am
90% of the people I know end up in Chicago and endure the mega-city bull shit daily. Madison is just that much nicer than other places. Get out while you can.
October 13th, 2006 at 11:43 am
I’m not native to New York either so I can definately relate to your frustrations. NY has it’s bad points and it has it’s good points too. I guess it’s all a matter of perspective. I have Excellus BC/BS, too, I’ll be sure to stay on my toes with them. I hope you’re able to work things out with them.